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Reduction



No wonder the scene is tainted with melancholy. No wonder all our eyes are fixated on the ground, noticing nothing but the specks on the ground, rather than the horizons of the skies. We're trapped, and I identify with the experiences in my life.

I see it everywhere, and it's grand scale is but a magnification of what has happened to me.

This is the reason I am going to make public the fact that I've walked out on the church, once and for all. I know the Christianity I seek is not here, and will never be here for a long time.

The God I worship, is not here. The Almighty God as told in the bible, the great deeds He has done, the goodness of His people.

He is NOT here. He is not in this church. He does not lie present and co-exist with the corrupt, the hypocritical, the power-hungry, the power-hoarding and the greedy. He does not lie alongside the envious, the jealous and the divisive. Your grip of fear on me is over. I will no longer succumb to your threats. I will not give in to fear and live my life as though I am lesser than human. I have my rights. Though I know they are not given to me but I know I have my rights to live fully.

And no, coming back to church is not the only way I can find peace with myself. Apologising for my alleged mistake is not the only way where I can come to terms with myself. I will not conform to you all. I will not conform and obey just because everyone obeys. I will not give in. I know whats right and whats wrong, and clearly, this is wrong.

You love peace and quiet, you love the absence of conflict, even if the majority is living in delusion. I cannot take this lying down, I've tried to rehabilitate myself but I still am unable to contain this scene before me. Justice, there must be justice exacted. But I am afraid, in a time like this, in a place like this, with people like these, justice is but a dream, because the tyrants reign, the greedy prosper, and the scheming thrive.

I've seen it once when I was a child, I've seen it once when I was a teenager, and now I'm seeing it again as a young adult. The picture just keeps getting bigger, and there is absolutely no way, I will relent, until the day comes, when with my own eyes, I see the unjust punished, and the oppressed set free.

My soul calls out for like-minded individuals, but I am afraid a breed such as us is scattered and defenseless, and we can only hope, that the hand of all things, will put us together, and tie us all in.

No wonder this air of melancholy is so rampant.

No, wonder.


 Tianyong
20 years old.
The time will come soon.