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Feeling low



There're too many things in my head which I wanna say.. My thoughts are all jammed up, with one squashed right beside the other, and another stacked right on top of another. My minds in a mess, and it has never been calm for a long time.

I know what I want, but I seldom find the courage and strength to pursue my true interests. I can't seem to be satisfied with what I have, and I'm always hoping for time to pass me by. Yes, once time has passed I'll start to look back, and wish that I'd have lived my moments slower, and hope that I'd have treasured the things I had before.

I've found many things during my time in the Army. I've found a whole band of new friends, people who're just people like me, people who have weaknesses and are humanly vulnerable. I have started to explore the more sentimental side of myself, as my regular absence from home led me to realise just how important family is.

In many aspects, I've pretty much sobered up, and yet there is still this one regret which keeps coming back into my thoughts.

These things are stuck in my mind, I just can't seem to say what I really want to say.

I just can't do it.


 Tianyong
20 years old.
The time will come soon.